“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
One of my favorite verses of Scripture. Do I always remember it…do I always let God do the planning…do I always remember that He’s in charge and He knows what the outcome will be? The answer would have to be no. I do try really hard but I always fall short. So often (OK… most of the time) I think I am in control and that I can take care of things.
Recently, Bryan and I have been discussing our plans for future children. The next time around for us would be very different because of my epilepsy diagnosis and the fact that I am now on medication to control that. There is much debate about whether to stay on the medicine, get off the medicine or just pull my hair out worrying. We have been in prayer about this but, of course, I still think that I can handle things.
After seeing my regular neurologist, I went to a different neurologist to try and get some definite answers and to work out a plan for when we are ready to get pregnant. Again, notice this would be our plan…not God’s. After coming home crying from that doctor’s office, worry again set in. There seemed to be no GOOD answer about the medicine, no GOOD time to get pregnant, no EASY way to do this. At this point our plan was to continue to prevent pregnancy until we knew better what to do.
Last Thursday morning, pregnancy was all I could think about. I felt like I should take a test. Bryan and I discussed it and decided that there was NO WAY that could even be a possibility. We have been very careful, at my doctor’s recommendation, because of my situation with my epilepsy medicine. Still in the back of my mind, I knew that I should take a test. I bought and the results were POSITIVE! We will have an new addition to our family in August of 2009!
Seemed crazy at first, even impossible! But you know what, I serve a BIG God! One that is bigger than epilepsy, one that is bigger than my medicine and one that is WAY BIGGER than the plans I have for myself!
I put in a call to both of my doctors about recommendations about my medicine and what we should do. Both doctors referred us to the other doctor and don’t really have any advice. We have decided for me to stay on the medicine for now. Please pray for Bryan and I as we continue to pray about God’s will concerning my medicine. Please pray for the health of this little one. God has big plans for him/her!
David and Ellie know and are super excited! David just wanted to make sure he didn’t have to share his room! 🙂
Until next time,