Ever feel like you want to just sit down and get it all out at the keyboard, but have nothing to say? It has been a long time since I sat down and put fingers to keyboard for that very reason. Didn’t feel like I had anything “blog worthy”. But you know what, it’s my life and it’s all blog worthy…to me anyway! 🙂
First, can I get an AMEN from anyone who was at FBC Jacksonville or Eaglepoint Sunday morning! Praise the Lord, I’m thankful that I have a Pastor who preaches the Word! Who do you smell like? Funny question, huh? Never thought about it before…
In 2 Corinthians 2:14-16, God’s Word tells me “But thanks be to God, who always leads in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of Him. For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. To the one we are the smell of death; and to the other, the fragrance of life. And who is equal to such a task?”
So, who do you smell like? I hope I smell like Jesus. Most days I’m sure I don’t even come close…
Ever do a Bible study and sit through week after week and wonder why you are even in there? God doesn’t even seem to be directly speaking to you through that particular study…well, we’ve been studying Esther (Beth Moore) on Wednesday nights. Although I’ve heard lots of great feedback from friends that are getting a lot out of the study, I just sit week after week wondering when it will be my time. Well, needless to say a couple of weeks ago, it was God’s time!
Beth talked one night about how Esther faced her fear. She approached the king, knowing that it could mean death for her. Then Beth began to talk about what we were afraid of. As I started to roll that over in my mind, I guess my fears are like most people’s. Fear of losing my husband, fear of losing one of my children, personal illness, something happening to my parents, my list could go on.
Then she asked us to fill in these blanks:
If __________, then __________.
How would I fill that in? The one that kept coming to the forefront was “if I were to lose one of my children, then I would die. I could not keep going. God might as well just take me with them.” I could not even begin to imagine.
Beth asked if I trusted God or if I trusted God not to let something bad happen to me. Hmmm. I think I have been trusting God that nothing bad would happen to me or mine, praying for that even. Not trusting God, period. No matter what comes.
What would happen to me if something happened to Bryan or my children? You know what? God would still be God. He would still be the same as He was yesterday, today and forever. Would it be hard? Yes. Would I be able to keep going? Now I know that the answer is yes. I would because God would still be God. He would still be in control and it would all be part of His plan…to bring glory to Himself.
I pray that God will help me with my worriedness. Is that a word? I am such a worrier. Worrying about things that will probably never even happen. And you know what happens when I worry? The devil gets a foothold…he’s got an “in”. And you know what else? He torments me with it. Torments me with thoughts of something happening to myself or my family. He wins! He gets me exactly where he wants me.
Well, I say “no more”! I’m not going to give him the pleasure and satisfaction. With God’s help, I can KNOW that I will be able to fill in my blanks:
If (whatever), then GOD.
Until next time,