Has God ever called you away from something that you really love? Something that you have a passion for and something that you could NEVER imagine NOT doing?
Been there, done that, got the t-shirt……
I have been praying for a long time about where God wants me to serve within the church body. I want to always make sure I am serving where God wants me and not where I want to be. Sometimes it’s hard for me to know.
Sometimes when I look around and notice that something needs to be done and no one has stepped up to serve in that area, I feel like it should be me. I can do it, right? Sure I can! God has given me the gifts of leadership and administration and I might as well use them, right?
Slowly I am learning that just because I am doing many GOOD things, it doesn’t mean that it is what God called me to do.
I have served in Awana for six years. The first year I was the Sparks Director and I started that year not even knowing what a “Spark” was! Ha! The last five I have served as the Awana Commander. Over a year ago, I started to feel really overwhelmed with all that I had going on in my life.
I convinced myself that I was doing a bad job handling all my responsibilities because I was being a poor steward of my time. I started to read books on organizing your schedule, managing your household, how to manage your time more wisely……
God continued to show me over and over that while I was using my gifts in Awana, what He really wanted me to do during this season in my life was to use those gifts at home.
That was not what I wanted to hear.
I LOVE Awana…I mean really LOVE it. I love the background and mission of this ministry. I love being around children, I love the adults I get to serve with. I did not want God to move me from this ministry. I kept praying….
He continued to confirm for me over and over what He was calling me to do.
Early in the spring, I stepped down from this ministry. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done.
I shed many tears….
I had lots of ugly cries…
At the same time, the devil has used this time to cast doubt at every turn about my decision.
At the times I have doubted, God has almost instantly confirmed this decision for me.
In amazing ways….
For those of you who don’t even know how God used you, thank you.
Thank you for speaking a word from the Lord right when I needed to hear it.
Thank you to my mentors for sharing their wisdom from years of experience with trying to be a mother and serve the Lord at the same time.
Thank you to a church staff member, who not even knowing what I was struggling with, walked up to me and told me exactly what I needed to hear, whether I wanted to hear it or not. God used you my sweet friend to confirm what He had been telling me all along. I Love You for speaking your mind at just the right time.
Will I miss being our church’s Awana Commander?
In a word…yes.
Maybe God will never call me back to this….
Maybe God will call me back when my children are older or grown…
But I will rejoice at being in the center of God’s will for my life during this season.
God is good, all the time.