When you are struggling with disappointment, you learn a lot about yourself. I’ve learned that I don’t really like who I am in those moments. 🙈 That’s a hard thing to land on.
Disappointment takes me back through all the things I could have and should have done differently along the way. I’ve learned that I sure can beat myself up worse than anyone else ever could.
I was that way as a child. A “B” on a report card made me way harder on myself that my parents could ever be. Why is that?
Why do some people think the worst of themselves when they have given their best effort? It reminds me that my best effort in my mind could always be better. There are things I could have done to change most situations and didn’t. Maybe it was purposeful and maybe I just didn’t see it.
I’m learning to find joy even in disappointment. Today I am surrounded by a boat load 🤣 of little people who mean the world to me. I want to teach them that it’s ok to have a moment in your disappointment. Take a little time, cry a few tears but then keep going.
I’m learning that I have people that love me in the joys and in the disappointments. Friends that let me cry on their shoulder and listen. Friends that don’t even understand my “life” but are willing to take time out of theirs to be a friend.
I’m learning that I’m not a quitter though I sure have moments where that mentality creeps in. I just have to remind myself that I can’t LIVE there. I can take a suitcase and visit but I can’t hang up pictures and pick out a rug. I have to keep traveling and not stop.
I’m reminded that my hope is in the Lord alone. He is faithful and never disappoints. He has a plan for me. A plan to prosper me and not to harm me.